Expect the Unexpected

Because I know, there are not many people that read my blog as it used to be... I feel safe to write a personal thought here. About love, that shaped me into who I am today. It all began in July 2015, I was only 17 years old goin on 18. It was my first time in my uni pre-class, I thought we had a seminar at auditorium back then. I walked directly into the venue, and I saw him seating on the highest row. He wore navy long-shirt, black curly hair that seemed too long for a man, and a black glasses. I sat on the second row, directly below him. Alone. I took a glance at him, and found he sat with his friend. After the seminar, I forgot how it went... but I found myself talking to his friend, the one who sat beside him. He stood there too. I remember looking at his eyes, and it was the moment I felt as if the time stopped ticking. I prayed to God, "ya Allah, if this is Your will, please let me find him again on our next encounter." A month later, He answered my prayer. It was in A

Sudah beberapa tahun terakhir ini aku tidak bisa menulis ataupun melukis apapun. Hidupku terasa datar, tidak ada hal lagi yang membuatku merasa senang (kecuali kehadiran anakku, Hagia). Tidak ada hal lagi yang bisa menginspirasi aku. Entah sudah sebanyak apa aku membeli peralatan lukis, buku catatan lucu yang banyak, namun tetap semuanya hanya berupa lembaran kosong hingga hari ini. Sampai semalam, aku kembali mencoba membaca seluruh postingan di blog ini, dimulai dari tulisan pertamaku di tahun 2012. Ternyata, ada begitu banyak kenangan manis, sedih, marah, kecewa yang aku tuliskan di dalam sini. Aku tumbuh dan berkembang di dalam blog ini, beberapa cerita kehidupan remajaku ada di dalam sini. Sebagai orang yang mudah melupakan kenangan-kenangan yang ada, membaca tulisanku sendiri membuatku merasa.... kembali hidup. Entah berapa banyak aku jatuh cinta, sakit hati, jatuh cinta, sakit hati, jatuh cinta lagi, dengan pria yang berbeda Orang-orang di dalam hidupku tidak begitu bertambah ba