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Catching Up!

It's 2022 now.

This blog somehow becomes the witness of my growth. I started this blog back in 2012, thus.. I'm already on blogger for 10 years. This blog lasts longer than my relationship, ever!

10 years have passed.. I was 15 yo, and now I'll be turning 25 this December. what do I do now? Am I the same old Nita? Am I better? Do I become stranger to some people?

The answer is.... My life gets boring, if you ask. I'm living a typical adult life; working, working, working, working, and working. Oh, almost forget. I also become a mother of one, a daughter named Hagia. So, it's like balancing life among working, be a mother, socializing, and most of the time.. resting.

I become more quite than I was in college or freshgrad days. I become anti-social. I enjoy being alone instead of get trap around people. I enjoy drinking my matcha-latte, while reading book.. or just simply scrolling through my Instagram or TikTok. I enjoy to have exercise once in awhile. I enjoy my busy schedule as an employee and also my role as a mom. I think, my life is just so imperfectly perfect.

Am I still ambitious?

In some cases, I am. I still have plenty agendas to do, but afraid to tell it to many people, because, well... I'm afraid that my dreams won't come true. I think, that thought is actually part of my anxious mind.

But anyway, the point is... I am blessed, and I love my life the way it is now.

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I can't believe that I'm truly an adult now.

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Let's talk about love, again. My posts were mostly talked about love, the young love that was so passionate, that brought so many broken hearts. I do realize now that love is actually very calming... if you meet the right person in the right time.

Love was not about the butterflies in your stomach.

Or, screaming and yelling to each other.

Or, ignore your partner's need.

Or, let your partner always feel alone.

Or, saying mean things to your partner.

Or, throwing knife at your partner.

Or, leaving your partner behind.

Love is being present to your partner at any circumstances.

Love is being proud of your partner when they do something that makes them happy.

Love is showing-off to people that you love your partner so much, that you may hurt people just to save your loved ones.

Love is trying to help your partner with your best attempt.

Love is when you sacrifice your happiness to see your partner happiness.

Love is to learn how to surrender, to lower your ego.

Love is unrequited, like a mother-daughter bond.

Love is like I love Hagia.

Another thing... Love means privacy, not secrecy. Tehee-hehee.

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