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Alhamdulillah

Lately I'm becoming poetic. Nggak ngerti kenapa apa-apa rasanya enak diungkapin pake tulisan.

My life's getting happier, surrounded by people who'll love and take care of me. I'm feeling blessed. Now, I'm wearing hijab, dan rasanya jauh lebih nyaman dan aman. Mungkin memang harus merelakan mimpi untuk ikutan GoGirl! Look / Asia's Next Top Model, tetapi berhijab bisa lebih membuat gue jadi baik dan salehah ke depannya. Aamiin.

Gue bingung.
Diantara temen-temen, tingkat ketaatan gue dalam ibadah masih kurang dari mereka. Baju-baju juga yaaa bukan model hotpants sih, tapi yang modelnya pas gitu. Baca Al-Qur'an juga nggak lancar. Tapi.... alhamdulillah mungkin ini emang jalan Allah untuk merubah gue.

Awalnya gue bingung bagaimana cara untuk beradaptasi dengan berhijab. Gue bingung baju-baju yang bakal dipake, kain kerudungnya, model pakenya, sampe dapet angle foto yang bagus. Memang menurut penelitian manusia adalah spesies yang paling mudah beradaptasi, tapi bener deh.. beradaptasi di luar comfort zone, lingkungan, sampai adaptasi dalam bertingkah laku itu awalnya susah.

Gue harus terbiasa olahraga pake hijab ga peduli seberat apa olahraganya. Gue harus terbiasa melakukan A, B, dan seterusnya.

Temen-temen juga bisa ngerasain perubahan sikap gue. Nita yang berhijab itu... jauh lebih kalem sekarang. Dulu aja walaupun masih tergolong kalem, ramenya udah kebangetan. Kebayang dong, makin kalem apa sekarang. Gue dulu lebih memilih untuk main dan ngobrol sama temen-temen, nanggepin guyonan mereka. Sekarang gue lebih memilih untuk diem, baca buku/majalah, main hp, denger lagu, ya gitu deh pokoknya. Gue nggak merasakan hal yang aneh di diri gue. Tapi temen-temen yang s
mungkin merasa kehilangan diri gue yang dulu kali, ya. Mereka sampe ngomong, "Nit, berubah banget sekarang. Kangen Nita yang dulu." Sama, "Anjir Nit, sini dong sama kita lagi. Jangan jadi diem gitu." Sejak dari situ gue berusaha balance, di antara kembali menjadi Nita yang dulu, dan menjalani Nita yang sudah berhijab. Perlahan, I found myself in the crowd. Gue udah bisa beradaptasi. Kuncinya cuma satu kok, dan ini berlaku universal. Sopan santun, manner, atittude, behave, grace, and pride. Udah.

Well, last but not least, berhijab itu bukan halangan untuk tetep jadi stylish.
"Elegance is the only beauty that never fades."

Sayonara

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