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Ordinary Girlish Things

I have this kind of enthusiasm whenever December is coming. Well, what can I say? The facf, December is the last month of the year, the closing month, that full of discounts (girls are girls), family gathering, winter (not in Indonesia but, I love snow!), preparing for NYE, and... my birthday. Lol.


It's so egocentric, I know, hehehehe.

I'm trying to be as stable as possible, to keep healthy inside and outside, to keep my emotion happy as long as it can be.

As a young woman, I must admit that I am naive. Just like my favorite song from The Sound of Music called, Sixteen Going On Seventeen. (I mentioned about this song on my old posts)

When I was sixteen, I used to sing this song everytime I had a chance! But as I grow up (not that grow up, it's only for 2 years, lol), this song keeps repeating in my mind over and over and over and over and over again.

But I guess, I realized it just now, the song represents my Eighteen going on Nineteen so well, rather than my Sixteen Going on Seventeen.


Every lyrics fits me...


One of my friend, Nanda, told me that I need to calm my self down. To keep being a girl, katanya hati-hati kalau cowok akan pada minder.

Her words hit me. To the core of my heart.

So, do I really need to limited my self and my gifts?

I am not that kind of girl.

I am a little bit like Margaret Thatcher, Audrey Hepburn, Julie Andrews, and Oprah Winfrey all in one body. I believe in gender equality.

She made me realized that I don't need a man, because I actually...


And yes, I am afraid and unprepared to face a world of men. I  would like to love someone, and I would like to be loved back... But, am I ready?


...I need someone older and wiser telling me what to do...
It's easy to be said and to be sung, but do I really need a man? Am I prepared enough to give my heart and soul to someone? Does he worth to own it? And, could he really be older and wiser?

But at least,
I know how to be blessed. I am happy. And I am excited.


So...
Heart don't fail me now, courage don't desert me.

Comments

  1. Nadia Hana AbrahamNovember 25, 2016 at 1:24 AM

    The truth is, the right guy won't minder of himself but rather, simply proud of you and proud to be by your side xx

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