Expect the Unexpected

What a long journey to go! Nggak terasa, I already have nieces! At the young age like this! The first one is from my first sister, and her daughter is Alexandria Keirra Averdi or Rara. She's two years old now and nothing can compare her cuteness! Rara suka Hello Kitty dan Baymax.. just like me. I teached her how to do Baymax's high-five and to do eskimo kiss. AND SHE CAN CALL ME NOW! Lucu banget tiap manggil "auntil". The second one is from my second sister. She's my second angel that was born 2 months ago. Sekarang Dey udah bisa senyum-senyum kalau ada yang ajak ngobrol dia. Dey pipinya tembem, dan paling gampang bobo di pelukan gue. Biasanya kita jadi ketidur bareng, dengan posisi Dey di dekapan gue. Argh, cute. I'm very blessed because I have them now. I'm proud to have them as my nieces. Sejak punya keponakan, gue yang anak bungsu (paling egois, gamau ngalah, manja) jadi otomatis rela mengorbankan apapun buat mereka. Buku catetan gue sering dic...

You're the red, I'm the blue You're the night, I'm the morning We couldn't be purple We cannot be as one You and I just a sad ending fiction Nothing's real, that was just my biggest dream And you should know That I adore you, and will always do I admire you, the one who reflected me ***

You're the face of my moonlit Shine through my darkest night You're the heart of my horizon Where the sun will drowned You paint my blue sky to be more colorful You blow the wind to my hottest sunny day You take the stars that I picked from the sky You bring happiness to me You're my lullaby to my sleep The smile of my dream You're my butterfly That fly in my stomach You're the song that I sing For every single day At last, You're the oxygen that I breathe You're my sun in the milky way My black hole that never gone And you're the gravity that I hold on to

Apa artinya sebuah impian? Apa artinya sebuah mimpi? Jika kau tahu semuanya hanya sebatas kalbu. Dia, aku, terbatas oleh waktu. Kita terpisah oleh dua dimensi. Jarak antara benua, samudera, bahkan bintang pun tak menggapai. Kita, hanyalah si punuk yang merindukan bulan. Menunggu untuk disapa. Mengharap untuk saling bersandar. Menatap dari kejauhan. Bercerita kepada hati sendiri. Kenapa? Kenapa kita rela bertahan? Disiakan tetapi tetap berteguh. Kenapa kita tetap berdiri tegak? Saat dia tak mengenali kita. Kita, memang menyedihkan. Tapi... mimpi memanglah mimpi. Impian yang harus dipertahankan. Kita masih di sini, menunggu ketidak pastian. *** Untuk fan-girl , secret admirer  di sekitar saya.. Love, Nita.

Can you define love? What is love? Does love make you happy? Does it make you strong? Does it make you sad? Does it make you angry? Love is... Butterfly in your stomach. A bittersweet feeling that makes you crazy. Love is big, love is full. No, you can't just love a person, but also everything around you. Your pet, your parents, your siblings. But people selfishly think that if you love someone, it means that it belongs to you. No, you don't own love. People also selfishly think that if you love someone, they need to love you back. No, you don't force love. Love... Makes you grown up. Makes you feel responsible. Not the opposite. Let them go, let them free. You don't find love, let love finds you.

Hi, I'm officially a college student now. HURRAY. I'm so busy these days. Also, my sister, Mba Andes just gave birth to a beautiful beautiful beautiful baby, Deandra Eiliya Isuhirman, I have niece again! The more I breathe, the more I look around, the more I realize that I'm so blessed. The more I keep my mind wide open, the more I know that I'm surrounded by beloved people. I'm feeling that I've grown up, I can be anything that I wanna be. I feel so relieved, happy, and cheerful. I'm becoming a whole new Nita, a whole new better person than I used to be. I'm so blessed.

Maybe you guys bored about Devina-ish posts. Yes, I wrote about her so many times. This time is her time, again. What did you do to me, Dev? You made me write about you (it'll sound romantic if I'am a boy and wrote so much things about you) ;( Actually, since I graduate from high school it's like I'm already free and spread my wings. I don't even care or miss with my school mates (you know what I feel about this love-hate relationship with this school). But, slowly some of them started to text me, ask me, said that I become arrogant, and they admit that they miss me. Then from that moment, I feel s-a-d. Yeah, so weird even for my self. I started to realized that I'm nothing without them. You know, we've through a lot of screw-shit-drama together. Side by side. And it's actually Devina is the one who make me think that I'm such a terrible person for trying move on from my high school life. She posted our photo with a lovable caption, and ...