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I hope we're gonna meet again

Thank you for believing in me when no one else did.
Thank you for cheering me when the others mocked at me.
Thank you for supporting me when no one else would.
Thank you for caring me when no one cared.

From the moment I knew you, I see you as a father.

Now you, the father figure that I idolized will be leaving soon.

I want you to be there at my graduation.

I want you to be the first one, along with my parents, to know when I get a scholarship abroad.

I want you to be there when I achieve my goal.

And now... it will be only a dream.

A dream that won't be a reality.

You taught me to live in passion.
You taught me to be disciplined.
You taught me to respect people and to be on time.
You taught me the lesson of life.
You taught me to see the beauty in the ugly.
You... taught me a lot of things that I did not know before.

I am sorry.
That I am nobody right now.
That I failed to make you proud.
That I stuck and trap.

I am sorry.
That I cried when you texted me today.
That I haven't replied your text because it hurts my heart.
That I cried when I saw your photos.
That I cried to know you won't be here any longer.

I am sorry.
That I am being selfish right now.
That I am being childish.
That I want you.
That I need you.
Because I'm not prepared yet.

It comes out so sudden.

I think... there is no other reason for me to stay if you go.

I know...
When there is "hello", there is "goodbye".

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