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Hello, it's been a while since I write the blog. A lot of things happened since a month ago. Alhamdulillah, I accomplished more than I expected. Starting from winning an internal essay competition, writing novels, chosen as the internal Mahasiswa Berprestasi in the campus, start to living my dream as an artist (which I super enjoy!), and doing some public speaking stuffs. It is way too much in a month, right?! But I know that is not enough. I am still willing to learn and to achieve more. The way I am now is not prepared enough to face the cruel of the world.

Anyway, It feels like I am living with two alter egos right now. There are the quite and the confident side in my soul, lol. My Mom told me that I was reaaaally coward as a little girl, I got scared easily, I was afraid of meeting new people, and I suddenly jumped and hugged my Mom whenever people were trying to approach me. She said that it takes half of my age (I will be 20 this December) to change the way I used to be and it is not an easy task to do. She trained me years by years to make the quite and shy Nita disappeared. Thus, she is succeed. I was shocked when I knew that my MBTI personality is an Extrovert, because I always consider my self as an Introvert. But later I learned that I am the extrovertly introvert, lol. I mean, if I got trapped among the introverts I will be the extrovert one. Vice versa.

I think my alter ego is the extrovert one, which appear more often than my introvert side. Lately, I was challenged to do everything with my noisy, confident, and (maybe) annoying personality in front of people. I need to meet new faces, speak to them, acting as if I am not the introvert one. Like earlier today, I was challenged to be the speaker in front of new students in the campus. Day by days, I was thinking, "What should I do?! I can't do it!" and even I told my Mom that I can not do it. Fortunately, she scolded me for doing that and told me that everything would be alright. And... Ta-Da! I did it! YES, I DID IT! My alter ego did it! WOOHOO! I felt everything was under my control. I was so relaxed and even I could give a loud voice, lol! It is always hard for me to talk in a loud intonation, even my friends know it. I was being different today. I walked out of my comfort zone and I am glad that I did it.

I think starting from this point, I love being in the public's eye for entertaining and giving them motivation. I could be a very different girl just in a moment, in a snatch.

Talking about alter ego,

There is one thing that I truly enjoy right now. As I said before, I start to living my dream as an artist. OMG, I feel so happy right now. Yes, I am a student in the faculty of Economics and Business, but I am an artist in the soul.

I am glad right now.

I am blessed.

Love,
N.

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