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Rising From the Ground

Sebagian dari doa gue udah terkabul.

Yep I'm feeling blessed.
Tuhan memang baik sekali, ya... kerikil-kerikil yang menghalangi langkah gue kini udah berhasil hilang satu per satu. Gue udah bisa balik menjadi Nita yang petakilan, nggak tahu malu, cerewet (walaupun masih tergolong pendiam yaa). Gue udah bisa membangun kembali dinding yang sempat roboh, kali ini pondasinya dibuat lebih kuat.

Seperti post gue yang tentang Teratai, perlahan gue bisa seperti itu. Gue mulai bisa menunjukkan warna yang ada, memperlihatkan sifat gue yang sebenarnya. Gue bukan lagi bunglon yang gampang berubah warnanya. Gue unik. Kalian unik. Kita semua unik. Dan gue bangga itu. Gue bangga bisa bangkit dari kesedihan.

Tuhan memang baik. Dia mendekatkan gue kepada orang-orang yang jauh lebih baik daripada dulu. Orang-orang yang ternyata mempunyai prinsip, pola pikir, dan sifat yang hampir mirip dengan gue. Sekalinya nggak cocok, justru bisa saling berargumentasi.

Bagaimana dengan mereka yang suka menilai orang lain?
Duh, like I care.
Silakan saja kalian menilai kehidupan orang lain. Apa kalian sudah merasa sempurna dengan membandingkan kehidupan gue? Ngomong yang nggak-nggak tentang kehidupan gue? Hanya bisa mengatakan kalau roda itu berputar. Kalian akan meraskan apa yang gue alami, tinggal tunggu tanggal mainnya.

I'm feeling blessed. Bener-bener feeling blessed. Tunggu beberapa hari lagi, kerikil yang menghalangi gue benar-benar akan hilang sepenuhnya dan hanya menyisakan tawa untuk masa depan.

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