Dear You

Dear Muth, Salsa, Elyta, Nadia, Wiwit, Citra, Rani, Natasha, Devina, Dias, and Baiq Tiara,

Manusia itu dinamis, selalu berubah.

Yes, I know that.

Tapi pernah nggak sih kalian nggak siap untuk suatu perubahan? Apalagi jika alurnya terlalu cepat...

I don't know how to express this, but I think... I haven't met someone who I can trust yet. Though they probably feel that "you trust me, aren't you?" to me... but no, I ain't trust them.

I think... I'm kinda girl that afraid of getting hurt, heart broken, sad, and get disappointed.. so eventually I suspect e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e? Lol, but I always have this lonely feeling, as if no one can break this boundary and won't let anyone get to know me better. Perhaps, they look at me as the brave and easy going Nita. But, behind that.. I think, I'm kinda girl that seeks of safety.

I think everyone has limits.

And I think... after all these years, through my childhood to my senior years in high school... I only have several people, beberapa orang yang bisa dibilang "soulmate", karena kami bisa saling mengerti. So, I think... I would present this post to my dear longlast squad..

Thank you for believing me, let me share toughts and joys, for keeping me real, for holding me to step on the ground like I'm supposed to be and keeping me not getting big-headed, for cheering me and stays at my lowest.

Yours,
Kompeni Belanda/OliviaJensen/Thea GGS/Audrey Hepburn/NiTasha a.k.a Nita Indra S.

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