Is 'Sorry' Enough?

We are way too far.
The days pass as we started to live our own life.
Separately.

And.... I hate it.
I hate to admit that I miss you.
I hate to realize that I was actually wrong.

If only,
We can turn back time.
To a year when we first met.
I would rekindled us.
And now.... It's too late.

I need to hide.
I need to hide from you as far as possible.
I need to hide from this mixed feelings.
I need to hide from the fact that....

I am flipped.
I am flipped because of you.
Your gaze, your laugh, your voice... So mesmerizing I can't even lie.
Those memories and my faults keep haunt me.
So, before I say good bye....
Shall you forgive me?

See you when I see you, my reflection.

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