3 April 17

Dear friend,

I listened to my ego more than I listened to my mind. It's not my intention to say sorry to you, because I'm not sorry at all. But today, this evening, when I was opening our chat in whatsapp (that I've been ignore since Friday, perhaps. Dan akhirnya chatnya tenggelem), I realised that was my fault. I forced you to do things that I expected you to do, pretending not to know about your condition recently, your list of homeworks, and I was really careless and reckless.

I know that I was wrong by coercing you like that, it was childish and selfish. I've been really bad recently, ignoring people without any reasons, pulling myself away from the crowd, and it was not only to you but to everyone else. I know that you're thinking 'masa bodo' about this, but I'm doing this because I'm feeling guilty right now.

So, I am sorry.

Once again, I know that you'll act 'masa bodo' and I'm doing this to make me feel better, I really regret it. I am afraid that I won't have much times to say sorry, it's better to apologize as soon as possible, so please just let it be.

*ps: This is the 1st time I write about you in the blog, so you should be blessed because I don't write common people in this blog.

Carpe diem.

Sincerly,
N

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