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Dream and Nightmare

Lately, for this past seven days I always had a nightmare. The nightmare was so awful and it made me cry in my sleep. The weird thing was, I didn't even remember what dreams it were. I woke up with red and wet eyes without knowing what just happened in my dreams.

The only dream that I remember is actually the dream of Momma died. Just it.

I am kinda wondering what nightmares that I had.

And it makes me kinda afraid to fall asleep because of imaging my self having a nightmare, again.

It makes me thinking whether I forget to pray before I go to bed, I get cursed by God, or the nightmares are actually the signs that God sent to me, or... What?

So what's happening?

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