Expect the Unexpected

Beyond the sea, among the waves Sands beneath my feet in the coast Here I stand want to be noticed I would swim, and I would dive Till I step on the sand and see the reef I wouldn't breathe nor see the sun But is it really matter to you while I'm always unseen? Am I brave or stupid? Am I sincere or lonely? I don't know Instead of happy, I would die Sacrifice though I know you wouldn't know I would rather fall to the ocean Deep and drown It makes no different Because I'm just so unseen

It's really scarry when strangers bully you. Over social media. Or face to face. But seriously... it's just too scary. I know now what idols think and feel right now. So, I just won a contest to watch "them" (won't mention the artist) and now.. THEIR FANGIRLS ARE (SORT OF) BULLYING ME, WHICH IS SCARY! They stalk me over the internet as if they don't accept me as the winner. Dear Fangirls, Don't be too harsh. Omg.

I'd never talk about this though I should!! So I've watched F1 since in the 9th grade, and I only knew about Sebastian Vettel back then. My chairmate, Salsa, has a HUGE crush on him so I was her victim everytime she was fangirling. Like it or not, I listened to those craps. Then... I was feeling "What's so good with Vettel" and I started to watch F1. At the moment, BOOM, HE IS GOOD. I was starting to be his fan back then. Up until now, I'm still his fans and now I know some of racers which is COOL! Salsa may loves Vettel to death, but I ship Hamilton more than Vettel. Lol. But seriously, Hamilton is really cute! He's a total pro! He was the 1st racer ever that won in such young age (before Vettel broke his record). But... Hamilton is always be my... imaginary brother? Hamilton looks like he's a rapper instead of racer, though. He has this swag that makes him more adorable and cute. Then then then, I've heard about Rio Haryanto joins F1 for Ma

Dear Muth, Salsa, Elyta, Nadia, Wiwit, Citra, Rani, Natasha, Devina, Dias, and Baiq Tiara, Manusia itu dinamis, selalu berubah. Yes, I know that. Tapi pernah nggak sih kalian nggak siap untuk suatu perubahan? Apalagi jika alurnya terlalu cepat... I don't know how to express this, but I think... I haven't met someone who I can trust yet. Though they probably feel that "you trust me, aren't you?" to me... but no, I ain't trust them. I think... I'm kinda girl that afraid of getting hurt, heart broken, sad, and get disappointed.. so eventually I suspect e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e? Lol, but I always have this lonely feeling, as if no one can break this boundary and won't let anyone get to know me better. Perhaps, they look at me as the brave and easy going Nita. But, behind that.. I think, I'm kinda girl that seeks of safety. I think everyone has limits. And I think... after all these years, through my childhood to my senior years in high school... I only h

Well, I consider my self as a feminist. I believe in the equality of men and women, I believe that women have the same rights as the men. I have this "Girl Power" inside me, seriously. BUT the question is "How to be a great women?" "Look like a girl, act like a lady, think like a man, and work like a boss." - anonymus. I believe in that words. I was raised pretty well by my Mom, and I lived in peace with her and my sisters. My Mom taught me that... "Men are jerks." Lol, but true. Here some of her lessons... 1. Seorang cewek harus intelek. Dumb is NEVER cute. Apa maksudnya intelek? Intelek bukan berarti nilai akademis kita harus selalu bagus. Intelek artinya kita mampu bersikap sopan santun, bertutur kata yang lembut, dan mau untuk menambah wawasan kita seluas-luasnya. 2. Seorang cewek nggak harus tergantung oleh orang lain, apalagi cowok. Jadi cewek yang mandiri. Menggantungkan harapan kepada orang lain itu sakit loh kalau nggak sesuai e

"LGBT bukan budaya Indonesia." Unfortunately, yes I agree with that. But it's stupid when people said, "Stop LGBT." Now, let's see. Being a Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender is not what they expected to be. Sesuai post gue sebelumnya, LGBT bisa terjadi karena trauma ataupun masalah lainnya. LGBT people looks exactly like us. Masih makan nasi, hidup di bumi, sekolah, kerja, so why we mock them? Sekarang gini deh... Kita, as straight people, pernah nggak sih mendengar kalimat, "Kalau kamu berusaha membenci orang yang kamu cintai, kamu justru semakin mencintainya." Saya rasa kalimat itu berlaku juga untuk para LGBT. Bagaimana mungkin bagi kita untuk membenci orang yang kita sayang? Jadi kenapa kalian, yang menolak aksi LGBT, secara tidak langsung mengintimidasi mereka? Memang wajar Indonesia sebagai negara mayoritas muslim menentang keberadaan LGBT, lantas apa kita harus menyakiti hati mereka? Kalau dilihat.. apa mereka menyerang kita? Apa

As the youngest in my family, mostly my sisters and my mom love to underdog me. They think that I'm still 5 and can't do anything, like I'm dumbest girl on earth. But, reality is reality. Soon they realized that I'm now a legal 18 yo girl, a college student, and they just can't resist that. Plus, I'm probably the tallest among my big family (except some of my cousins). Living as the youngest one is actually challenging. Though we have a huge age gap, but age is just a number. Mba Tita and Mba Andes still look good, like on their 20s. They're so stylish, elegant, and I love them to death! I save their contact as "Jilatan Api Neraka" and "Gangster", what a savage little sister. Mba-mba probably think that I'm too spoiled, too childish, too "can't do anything right" but what they don't know is... I'm not anything like that. Mostly, well yeah, I acted like a 5 yo girl right in front of them but acted like I'm

They said, I can't do that. There's nothing wrong with having dream. "Bermimpilah setinggi langit jika kau terjatuh, kau akan berbaring di antara para bintang." - Ir. Soekarno I am actually a full time dreamer. Am I the only girl in 2016 who still HAS a diary? A weekly planner? Am I the only one who still believes that we should write every dreams that we dreamt of? Well... My advice is, whether you're a girl or a boy, if you don't have a diary nor a weekly planner, you SHOULD have one! Write all of your dreams are just one step forward to start your action. Write your goals, your purposes, your dream house, write about everything! (And yeah, I also wrote my dreams and sticked it on my wall). Beside that, in my case, since I were a college student.. I settled my mind to focus on my self, to improve my skills, to build a frienldy atmosphere in the crowd, and try to be the best. And... I'm struggling (still, until now) to not interested and fall for

Mengapa kalian gencar menentang LGBT? Isu tentang Lesbian, Gay, Biseksual, dan Transeksual ini memang tengah marak di kehidupan masyarakat. LGBT memang menentang ajaran di dalam agama Islam (saya yakin sebenarnya di semua agama menentang ini) dan juga menentang norma yang berlaku di masyarakat. Ibarat memantulkan bola ke dinding dan bola tersebut malah kembali menyerang kita, bukannya semakin kita gencar untuk memberantas LGBT, mereka juga akan semakin gencar menunjukkan aksi mereka, ya? LGBT memang seharusnya dilarang, harus sebisa mungkin disingkirkan dari kehidupan anak muda di Indonesia, apalagi yang masih berusia belasan tahun (karena emosi yang masih bergejolak, dan labil), tetapi bukan dengan cara kekerasan. LGBT sama seperti kita, manusia, makan nasi, minum air, dan punya perasaan. Ini sama saja kita melakukan diskriminasi, bullying. Ironisnya, kita semua hanya mampu menentang tanpa mengetahui seluk-beluk masalah orientasi seksual ini. Apa faktor yang menyebabkan seseorang me

"Losing someone hurts." I'm not talking about love. Losing your boyfriend / girlfriend isn't THAT hurt, seriously. But when it comes to your family... it hurts. Really truly hurt. My Uncle, Koko Triananto, just passed away on Feb 3rd, and though he was just my "uncle", he was everyhting to us. He was the one who picked me up everyday when I had extra lessons at NF Palmerah. He was the one that got mad at me when I was so naughty. He was the one who saved me. And... I'm feeling bad because I am probably the most kurang ajar niece that he had. I hadn't do anything that pleased him yet, and I'm really sad to know that I can't do it on the future. To my Mom, he was the only big brother after Pakde Nono passed away in 2010. Pakde Koko took care of my Mom very well, and so my Mom. Their bond was so strong, they helped each other, loved each other, and never feud. There were the times when we cried together... We're still grieving of Pakde

"Not every people is kind, but there's a kindness in every people." * Even the most baddass people, somehow has a kind heart. The homeless people, somehow and sometime are better than the richest people. Don't judge a book by its cover , that's somehow true. The uggliest cover probably contains a lot of lessons, like Encyclopedia, lol. But seriously, nggak semua buku yang cover -nya bagus isinya juga bagus. Justru buku lusuh yang isinya 'kebanyakan' lebih bermanfaat. * "Every saint has past, and every sinner has future." * I don't know what to say about this. But in my opinion, even religious leaders probably had the darkest time of their life. So, no one is innocent (exept baby, toddler, and kid), semuanya punya cerita aib masing-masing yang hanya dia dan Tuhan yang tahu. * Simple words, but meaningful. Somehow, I believe in that. Every people deserves chance to be better, to be heard, to be seen, that leads to a bright future.