Expect the Unexpected

Dear my friends, This is my open letter about college life. Saya akhir-akhir ini lebih banyak berdiam diri dan membaca buku. Lalu, memperluas pengetahuan saya dan menjalin hubungan dengan orang-orang baru, berusaha menjadi objektif ke setiap orang. Saya harus berterima kasih kepada beberapa orang karena telah menjadikan saya seperti sekarang ini, Nita yang bersiap-siap untuk menyambut usia kepala 2 sebentar lagi. Which means , saya perlahan-lahan berubah menjadi young adult . Bukan anak picisan lagi. Semoga. Hehe. Semakin dewasa saya semakin sadar jika inner circle yang saya miliki semakin mengecil, dan saya bersyukur karena Tuhan telah memberikan orang-orang terbaik pilihan-Nya di dalam kehidupan saya. Semakin dewasa saya sadar jika tidak semua orang akan menjadi temanmu, beberapa akan ada yang menjadi musuhmu dan berusaha menggunjingkanmu. Semakin dewasa saya sadar jika terkadang semua hal tidak akan berjalan sesuai dengan keinginanmu. Semakin dewasa saya harus semakin menerima k

It is funny to see that a man thinks that a woman has another "intention" when she asks him for a help.

The more I grow, the more I become aware and suspect people. Every people but my family. Even a friend could stab you from behind, am I right? It is ridiculous to believe in a person as if that person won't hurt you. It is so naive, and I think it's tiring to be naive like this. I am being lied and cheated, and became disappointed eventually. I am so sick of it. I am tired of it. That's enough bullshit of you. And you. And you. And you. And you. I am building a wall to everyone right now. To keep myself safe and sane. Because I learn that not everyone deserves my caring and loving.

A year ago Or Tonight Or Tomorrow. You are still the art... To me. Knowing, Meeting, Caring, Loving, Sensing, are like a gift from God for me to feel. It ain't about what you did in return. It ain't about how long that I am here. It ain't about what you think and what I think, or what someone thinks. It is purely because you already absorb every energy that I have. You are the vortex of the most beautiful art. You regain energy from every eyes that adore you. You slowly stole it. And now it is just me in here... as dead as the corpse. Wanting to feel again, but too afraid to be absorbed... again. Lol, this is just me... babling about you.

I am getting far far away. To be the strangers once we were. But honestly I do not like it. I still want to take care of you. I still want to be the first one you call when you need help. Because I know you know I am all yours. Hating you and loving you are the same. But missing you is all that I can not hide. Perhaps you do not realize how much you made me hurt. With those sharp mouth... And with those unexpected attitude... Or with those undeniable statement. Is this love? Or perhaps... Do you use my feeling for your advantage? Am I being fooled? Am I being blinded? I do not even know what to do about you. Whether to stay or to leave. Please, I do not expect you to do things in return for my favor. I only ask for your respect. Because feeling is not a toy to play with. It is fragile and broken. Honey, you got an issue. But you know I am always here. Loyal to adore you.

Bisa terlihat jelas sih topik yang kali ini gue akan tulis apa. Yup, tentang negara kita, Indonesia. Sejujurnya, setiap 17 Agustus itu gue gampang baper, lho. Membayangkan bagaimana para pahlawan dulu berjuang untuk memerdekakan negara ini. Tetes darah dan keringat sudah bersatu di tubuh mereka, suara tembakan dari berbagau penjuru, benar-benar terbayang di dalam pikiran gue setiap mendengar lagu-lagu wajib nasional Indonesia. Bahkan, pada awalnya Indonesia Raya saja hanya bisa dimainkan dengan biola agar para penjajah tidak tahu makna lagu ini. Rasanya, Indonesia itu memang uber alles, deh. Gue selalu merinding setiap mendengar atau melihat sesuatu yang berhubungan dengan Indonesia. Entah dari lagu wajibnya, dari alat musik tradisionalnya, dari kebudayaannya, dari gugusan pulaunya yang banyaaaaak banget. Memang Indonesia masih menjadi negara berkembang, sebuah negara yang kalah dari Korea Selatan walaupun mempunyai usia kemerdekaan yang sama. Tetapi gue yakin, Indonesia akan menjadi