Between Trust, Friendship, and Depressive

"I hope I will never be in your depressive mode."

Someone said this a few days ago. Those words keep repeating in my mind. It's actually something bother me lately. Since now I know who I really am, I'm wondering... "Do I really put some people in my depressive mode? Or those people are the cause of my depressive mode?"

Am I healthy enough to think clearly? Can I really control my feelings or my emotions?

I am really blessed and thankful enough to the people who I trust to share about, have been so helpful by cheer me up, knowing that I can tell them anything without afraid of getting judgement.

But thankfully, the person who said those words is not someone that I put in my depresive mode nor the cause of it. The person is actually 1 out of 2 people who I recently talk anything with.

"I hope it doesn't change our friendship."

The person said it too. Different context, but linked.

No, it doesn't change our friendship and I hope it will never be.

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