Worthy Soul

I like deep hugs.

I like holding hands.

I like unexpected kisses.

I like to be clingy.

I want it everyday.

I want to be loved, seen, heard, wanted, and needed.

I want intimacy, connection, feeling warm and safe.

I want a bond, soul to soul.

A real love.

Not a lust.

I was kissed and hugged by love, several times, years ago in juvenile times.

I was kissed and hugged by lust, several times in adult times.

They longed for more hugs and kisses, they craved me. Some came from the intimacy and connection built in trust and affection, the rest... came from lust.

As a lover woman, I know the difference, I could feel it... and I hate how lust could tainted the intimacy, connection, and the bond of souls. I hate how lust could made it as if an assault where I was only an object, not a subject. I hate how intimacy and connection eventually could became a lust.

I miss to feel the sacred of love, where it overflows with intimacy and connection. Where eyes could speak to another eyes, without needing any words. Where the heart could feel another heart, without needing translation.

One day, I will be kissed, hugged, loved, seen, heard, wanted, and needed again.

'Till that day come,

I will patienly wait for the worthy soul.

So, who will be the worthy soul? Are you worthy enough? Are you the worthy soul?

Come to me, embrace yourself, show me your worth.

Hug me tight, feel my body fits yours,

Hold my hand, feel the warmth of it.

Kiss me deep, feel the soft of my lips.

Do it all, as if we would die tomorrow. Cherish the moment, do it slowly, do not rush, feel it, don't make me as an object.

Love me, see me, hear me, want me, and need me over lust.

Once you do it,

You will never ever feel another hug, kiss, and warmth of the hand greater than mine.

Truthfully, the true lover woman that I am, I know how I am great to create a bond.

You will be hugged like you've never been hugged before.

You will be kissed like you've never been kissed before.

You will never be able to let go of my hand easily.

You will crave more the depth of my soul, the intimacy and the connection.

I will say it again, let me assure you: you will never find anyone greater than mine.

Thus, you will see me as your universe, your beautiful world filled with sacred air, green grass in the summer breeze, aromatic colorful flowers, undeniable gravity that makes you keep on my ground.

Make me yours... I will love you, see you, hear you, want you, need you like no one could ever offer you in this life time, and I know you — the worthy soul, will be the only person that ever offer me the bestest in this life time.

Your mind is alive.

I know you imagine it, don't you tired of it?

Your soul crave me, so feed your soul with my presence not my absence.

Come, now. We will turn the imagination to reality. Show me your worth.

So, are you the worthy soul?

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