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Dear Momma

Dear Momma,

If there is any world beside this, if I ever get lost, I hope you will be there for me. You are the one who taught me to stand high in my lowest, to always blessed in every condition, to always patient in this tough world, and to smile behind this fragile body.

You are the most strict, discipline, grace, and charming lady I know and I'm so glad that you take care of me as your daughter. Yes, you are my Momma and I am proud to be your daughter.

I used to lie sometimes when I was in high school, and since I am now a college student.. I think it's not right and wise enough to hide something from you. You deserve to know anything, you have right. Then, I learn to told you everything. My friends, my love story, my enemies, my college life, my school life, my grades, my problems, and tell you that once I skipped class. For the 18 years of wasting, now I realize that you are my bestest friend in the whole wide world. Then I know you are the one who colored up my dark world... I CAN TELL YOU EVERYTHING LIKE, SERIOUSLY.

You always taught me to only trust God, yes. You taught me to never trust anyone, yes. You always taught me to be independent and only rely on God, yes. But Mom... why world is so unfair? Why my destiny is so unfair? Why am I always feeling like this? You are the only person who know me really well but I know... if I ever told you about this, you will probably get sad too. I can't see your tears. I can't talk to you about this as much as I wanted to. So that's why I'm sharing it to my friend. It's not that I trust her, it's because if I tell you I can't see you cry because it only makes me wanna cry too. I know I am not as strong as you, won't never be. To me, you are my everything. I can't imagine my self without you. With you, I still feel alone sometimes. But what if you leave me? What do I have if I loose you, Mom?

And I am coward enough to talk about this in my blog whether than I talk to you personally. As I said before, I will cry if I ever talk about 'family life' to you. I know you'll read my blog so I think it's better to tell you like this.

I am sorry because I can't make you proud of me, and I'm just nothing than a spoiled and naughty little lady.

Momma, I promise when I grow up and having my own child... I will love them as much as you love me. I will take care of them and be the coolest Mom like you are. I will never leave them alone and I will be the one who protect them.

I will rescue them like you rescued me when I was a kid. I will adopt a child too because every child deserves love. I will always love child, I promise you.

Thank you for saving, loving, and caring me.

You are my world, Momma.

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